Capitolo 79
I work that should save my reason to live for his/her child."
"_February_ 18, 18--
"I have continually written. I took drugs me with writing him/it as if it
it was chloral against the stabs of memory that you/he/she has assaulted me. There the wish
both chapters that I will never read, those that I have written as I sat from my desk
the day after the 12, the cold, grey light that pours in on me, sometimes
holding my suspended pen while I was having a deadly struggle with mine
desire, while forcing again thoughts, driving my mind to work as if I/you/he/she were
a beast. I conquered through the day. My job didn't suffer; as I read
on me he/she saw that I had not written better never, despite the certain pains
what it almost stopped my heart. But at night! ah! if I had had a room to
would I, be given me a moment of rest how evening? Me
has not you/he/she written on until me I slept from the work?
"But that could not be. Elsie stirred uneasily; the light disturbed her/it.
For a moment I almost hated him small complaining voice, God forgives me!
and then I stripped and I slipped in bed, and so quietly I placed close to
his/her, that she thought that I slept. I uniformly breathed and slightly--I owe
is able to countefeit sleeps from this, I have done it calculates enough.
"Well it is of any profit to king-live that night. I thought there was anybody
the hope went away in me, but I am deceiving me, it seems, for him
fought very hard, every thumb of the earth, for survival that night, nevertheless
now I am sure it won't lift again never his/her head.
"And now, as I said me, there is no anything gone away to every earth for me but my
sister and my Art. "_Poete, ton of prends the luth_."
"_May_ 10, 18--.
"My book is a success, or, the world calls him/it a success; but in everybody
the years to come him it won't love again never me, therefore to me it is a
failure, having failed of its purpose, its reason to be. That that ago
would it appreciate the fame that has brought me, since doesn't he love me anymore?
"If had come one year ago!