Capitolo 69
for them from reason for their weakness.
But it now has Satan attack me to such extension that I don't know anymore
where I can find rest, or even so a lot as long live. I am driven here of
and yon, a fugitive and a vagabond, also as the cursed Cain (Gen.
iv, 14). I have already said that "without it was fights, among
it was fears" (II Cor. vii, 5), and these torture me ceaselessly, the
fears that are indeed without as among, and the fights
wheresoevers there are fears. No, the persecution brought above from mine
the angers of children against me more dangerously and continually of that of
my open enemies, for my children I always have with me and me I am never
shown to their disloyalties. The violence of my enemies in which I see
the danger to my body if I leave the cloister; but inside of him I am
forced to incessantly bear the skilled machinations as
the violence open of those monks that have called my children, and that
me you/he/she is submitted to as their abbot that is to tell them father.
Oh, as they has often tried to kill myself with poison, also as the
monks tried to kill Benedict of Street! Methinks the same reason that
conducted the saint to abandon his/her bad children it would encourage me to
follows the example of so great a father, so that not, in to expose this way
I to the certain danger, am probable that I am held a rash tempter of God
rather than a person in love of his, no, so that it is not probable that is also judged that
I had complained with this my his/her own life. When I was safeguarded me to
the best of my ability, till now as my food and drink it pertained to,
against their daily plottings, they tried to destroy me in the
the a lot of ceremony of the altar putting poison in the wine glass. One
day, when I had gone to Nantes to visit the account that was then
ill, and while I was sojourning a few in the house of one of mine
brothers in the meat, they worried him about to poison me with the,
connivance of one of my companions, believing that I would take anybody
precautions to escape such plot. But it foretells providence so it ordered