Capitolo 61
further shelter in flight, often in my prayers I repeated on and
on new: "From the end of the wish of earth I cry to Thee, when
my heart is submerged" (Ps. the lxi, 2).
Anybody, methinks could fail to understand as persistently that
undisciplined body of monks, the direction of which I had this way
undertaken, it tortured my day of heart and my night, or as continually me
it was forced to think about the danger similar to my body and to mine
soul. I held him/it for some that if I had to try to force them to
long live according to their principles you/they had been declared, me
you/he/she should not survive. And anchor, if I didn't do at the most this of
my ability, I saw that my damnation was insured. Besides, a
the certain gentleman that was very powerful in that region had of it
first calculations brought the abbey under his/her control, while taking
advantage of the state of trouble inside the convent to grab
all the earths adjacent thereto for his really use and him the earth down
the monks with taxes heavier than those from what you/he/she was extorted
the Hebrews themselves.
The monks pressed me to provide them with their daily necessities,
but they didn't contain in common any ownership which is probable that I administer in
their account and every one, with such resources as him it possessed,
sustained his/her concubines as his/her children and he and
daughters. They took delight in to molest me on this matter, and
they stole and they brought away any they could place him the hands
on, to the end that is probable that my failure to maintain order manufactures me
or you give up trying to strengthen otherwise discipline abandonments my place
together. As the whole region was equally wild, the without law and
unorganized, there was not only a man to whom I could turn for
helps, for the habits of entirely similar it was foreign to me. Out of the
convent the gentleman and its ceaselesslies of the acolytes pursued me, and
inside his/her walls his/her brothers you/he/she was drawing forever against me, this way