Capitolo 49
my moans and sighs and torn wounds. Then, as if I had been a
condemned criminal, I was given above to the abbot of St. Medard,
who was present there, and it conducted to his/her convent as to a jail. And
with this the suggestion was immediately dissolved.
The abbot and the monks of the aforesaid convent, thinking that me
he/she would remain from very with them, it received me with great exultation, and
industriously tried to comfort me, but entirely in vain. Or God that the dost
you judge the same justice, in that poison of the spirit in that that
the bitterness of mind, I blamed Thee you protect for my shame, while accusing
Thee in my madness! Full often me I repeated the complaint of Street
Anthony: "Kindly Jesus, where wert You?" The pain that has tortured
me, the shame that the desperation has submerged me that my wracked
you mind, all these that I could feel then, but it now equalizes me I cannot find words
to express them. Comparing these new sufferings of my soul with
those that I had previously borne in my body, seemed that I was in
a lot of truth the more one they put among men. Indeed that first
betrayal was become later a small thing respect with this
bad, and I complained far the my name equitable evil more than that
to my body. The second, indeed I had brought on me through
my really badly, but this other violence had only come on me
from reason for the honesty of my purpose and my love of our faith,
what you/he/she had forced me to write that that I believed.
The a lot of cruelty and lack of heart of my punishment, did however
every one that felt the vehement history in to blame him/it, so that
those that had a therein of the hand were anxious soon to disown everybody
the responsibility, taking on the shoulders the blame on others. No, the matters came
to such passage that protects my competitors they denied that they had had
anything to do with the matter, and as for the legacy, him publicly
reported the malevolence with which French had acted. Rippled from
repentance for his/her injustice, and feeling that he had produced
enough to satisfy their rancour, he shortly freed me from the